the eyes that glaze throughout

2009-11-04T07:56:00.000-08:00

I HAVE MOVED!!
pop-liquor.lj (:
see ya there!

2009-03-23T09:50:00.000-07:00

WTF WTF WTF!
* sorry for the vulgarity here but honestly *

KEY WORDS :

"SKIN,CONSERVATIVE,TUDUNG,I,SKIMPY"

says the girl in shorts.

"OWN,BUSINESS"

says the girl who needs other people to help defend her and went public abt it.

and i once thought she was a good friend.
HAHAHAH.
wad a joke!
i notice suddenly that the people i thought loved her.
have actually seen the true her.
and i can tell you, it aint purrrty.

bloody hell.
make ppl blood boil only.
harrumph!

venting. labeling. bullshit.

2009-03-12T04:40:00.000-07:00

stereotyping.
labeling.
tagging a label.

everyone labels whether intentional or not.
but to actually express such a label to the whole world ie the net.
is that necessary.
is one actually showing that one stereotypes and in a way prejudices.
this is one of the lowest one can go in my opinion.

now, dont get me wrong.
but judging someone you barely know.
this is not understandable at all.
and neither is it sensible.

and yes, IT IS FOR FUN.
blabla.
but at the expense of hurting someone else's feelings.
thats gta be LOW.

so this raging pics and label thing
from green creatures, to lil mr and miss to pokemon etc.

labels i've been tagged.

people who dont really know me well.
- The annoying one and The one who wont shut up in lil ms and mr and pokemon(MEOW! ). ( this made me want to PUNCH someone's face because it came from a classmate i barely know in my sem2.2 and i cant believe i bother replying his smses and queries on questions about school and even going directly to the tutor for him, if this is how one shows gratitude than this is all time low,honestly.)

- The nosey one. ( If this is related to me being curious and asking questions than fine but i do not nose around other's people business blatantly and no less in a very small htm world where everyone knows everyone's business well and this is from a dude who barely spoke 2 words *i think, i dont rmbr talking to him* to me. okay judging someone primarily. oh-AM-GEE )

- The one that's out of place ( Okay, at first i am thinking, is this a bad thing? or a good thing? My first conscience said BAD because well, she's trying to say i'm neither here nor there and in a way, saying I dont BELONG. so what, am i an alien now? So fine, i dont fit in. But do i really want to fit in when being judged like that at first. I-DONT-THINK-SO. Then i thought this could be a good thing, i may be different and unique and so i dont fit, oh who am i kidding, i`m trying to be wads the word, oh yeah POSITIVE. right )

From someone I know well :

- The Drama Queen ( I`m fine with this. totally and really coz yes i am PANICKY and over conscious and hyper and daddy says so too..so i`m like OKAY(: )

THIS REALLY SHOWS HOW DIFFERENT SOMEONE WHO KNOWS YOU WELL AND SOMEONE WHO DSNT JUDGES AND I RECKON IF YOU ARE ACTUALLY CLOSE TO SOMEONE SUCH LABELS wont exist coz YOU TAKE INTO CONSIDERATION THEIR FEELINGS and I'd respect it if such action would actually stop, and i`ll never partake in such childish acts.

and

hey! lets face it...

i dont tell the whole world what i think of you, do I ?

P>S : you're thinking, oh come on, if you got a good label like MISS STYLISH, MISS FRIENDLY this post would never happen. And yes, that might be true, but hey HUMAN NATURE. and sometimes it can be really ironic.
life can be a bitch.

i wish i were insensitive than such labels wouldnt hurt me.

2009-02-27T06:51:00.000-08:00

I AM NOT FEELING EMPTY.
or am i?
and if so, what am i feeling EMPTY about?!

i need a list.
a list of things to do to actual give life
an actual
MEANING!

2009-02-17T06:41:00.000-08:00

"I AM SUPER LAZY THIS SEMESTER"
which is why i have the MOST HORRIGIBLE GRADES EVER!
never study hard and this is what happens):
yea reen, tough semester, no rest, but still
I COULD HAVE ORGANISED MY TIME WELL!!!!!!

going to school
literally EVERYWHERE i look around
are all this smart people
and i feel like some stupid person who doesnt know much.
and maybe intimidated or dumbo.
its a sucky feeling but i feel it everyday sometimes...
why is it this way?

coz i am LAZY!
i can wish for so much
but its only up to me.

motivation resides in the bestest of friends though~.
loves.

2009-02-06T06:07:00.000-08:00

i got the biggest shock in my whole presentation life today.
and will learn from it for future purposes.
and as if i`m already not kiasu enough, i gta be MORE kiasu!
so singaporean.
gah, ready to escape here ready.

i just dont wanna screw things up.
i may not be book smart or wdvr, but i really try my best and work hard.
haiz.
i guess i just gta work harder. ):

thanks mad and travun

and the 2h05 tissues(:

2009-02-01T07:07:00.000-08:00

here are pictures to sum up my week after the 23rd of Dec(:
awesome much.
now gta study ^^

sentosa flowers 2009,barely got to see though): .

just a sneak peak. didint really get to see much! but it was really really beautiful.(:

movie date with darling.

watched bride wars and coincidentally syaf was there with her tkgs buddies too! so she help take some cool shots! i cant wait to see the effect printed from her ol' skool holga!(:
anyhoo. bridewars was just A-W-E-S-O-M-E.
travun wanted to cry pls. HAHA.

travun and a HOLGA.

credits to dear syalala for this images(: so beautiful!

swimming with cousins.

night swimming with gf.
one helluva night with all the touching moments*ahem, the prezz*, the fake kimchi, the water and camera-ing and MOST RECENTLY! our obsession with VIDEOS(:
we so rock.
- LOW LOW LOW
- JUST DANCE
(winks! too bad you cant see em!)

2009-02-01T06:54:00.000-08:00

i have a friend.
she's one of the nicest people in the world
and i`m really close to her,
but she's feeling sad nowadays and
i dont know how to cheer her up.
she's motivated,driven,intelligent
but she can get be really sad sometimes.

when she's sad.
i get affected to cause
i care about her as a friend
and i feel helpless i cant do anything.
I did something,
but i dont think she responded to it..):

how.
help me?!

2009-01-17T08:17:00.000-08:00

okay...
so things didint go exactly as planned
actually WHO AM I KIDDING
it didint go according to PLAN at all.
and perhaps there were some regrets at first but

IN THE END
IT ALL WENT WELL!
thank goodness graciousness(:

carousel and adidas flew out of the window

and instead we went breeks where he prolly got the
shock of his life when "happy birthday" walked towards him!
baby, whats with the tendency to rub your face humm?

and then we walked to suntec(:
pass by the couple keychains booth store thingies
and since he has a thing for them,
we bought them for each of us(:
because we are cool and we can write things on it(:
i love my message.
so ultra sweet.(:

and then we went to get this bracelet which i happen to see along the way.
cute cute.

and then we went to BUILD A BEAR!
i noe right!
haa, but it is his bday!
and we had a blast there.
BLAST CHOOSING OUTFITS,
BLAST BATHING
and BLAST CREATING CERTS.

his name is SPIDEY btw(:
for obvious reasons lurh!!!

and now you shall meet him and my newest darling*(:*

2009-01-16T16:01:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 19th SWEETLOVE;b my darling shona's bday today.
i doubt he'll read this.
but lets just say i have plans.
Plans to make tmr awesomous maximus(:
will update soon.
prolly after 23rd.

but now my focus is to finish the projects.
with strong will and baby's support i will
try my bestest(:

love always.
reen.

2008-12-31T21:46:00.000-08:00

On my playlist :

Viva La Vida - Coldplay
Rehab - Rihanna

Currently loving
Can You Hear Me!

I remember that I can still feel you
Sometimes I’m blind but I see you
You are here but so far away

The times when you wanna.. Im missing you
Makes me feel like I’m spinning
Sometimes you get what you gain

I’m on a coaster-collision
Am not about to give in
Can’t explain my position or the condition that I’m in.

Where I am is no limit, no walls, no ceilings
No intermission, so let
Let the party begin.

(Chorus)
Hey.. Hey.. Hey all the way
DJ let it play.
Hey Hey Can You Hear Me?
Oooow

Hey.. Hey.. Hey all the way
DJ let it play.
Hey Hey Can You Hear Me?
Oooow

Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me?
Oooow

Don’t you mean that you’re my vision
I gotta make a decision
Do I go, do I stay? (Stay)

You’ve gotten into my system
You are in control of my mental
I need to mean for a stay (???)

I’m on a coaster-collision
Am not about to give in
Can’t explain my position or the condition that I’m in.

Where I am is no limit, no walls, no ceilings
No intermission, so let
Let the party begin

(Chorus)
Hey.. Hey.. Hey all the way
DJ let it play.
Hey Hey Can You Hear Me?
Oooow

Hey.. Hey.. Hey all the way
DJ let it play.
Hey Hey Can You Hear Me?
Oooow

Oooow Oooow Oooow Oooow Oooow Oooow
Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me? Can You Hear Me?

Hey.. Hey.. Hey all the way
DJ let it play.
Hey Hey Can You Hear Me?
Can You Hear Me?
( repeat 5x )

Lil Wayne:
Enrique, Yea I can
This is Mr Morales

Kiss Roos

2008-12-30T06:12:00.000-08:00

I AM FUCKING SICK
of FUCKING C grades okay.
FUCKING SICK of it.

and when you put in so much effort in it
and you get a fucking C again.
its so bloody tiring.

i never got an A before.
and i look around and i see people with
As and Zs.
does that mean i am lousy,
i guess it does.

I have a test tmr at 11am
i barely studied
and my project on 2 Jan
is unfinished):

i hate life.
but too bad.
have to bloody move oN!

2008-12-25T18:18:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas to all. (:

Discovery Channel

2008-12-22T07:19:00.000-08:00

Gross but the Discovery Channel part is super catchy!

i love snapple.

okay bye.

ohyah travun.
this is for yoU!

I LOVE THE BOY
WHO's READING THIS.
BOOM DE YA DA *3

Main Prem Ki Diwane Hoon.

2008-12-20T00:55:00.000-08:00

* classic movie. love t. *

2008-12-20T00:21:00.000-08:00

SAM!(:
a good start to the mugging week with junior no` 2!

* i seriously didint get this, none of the descriptions fitted my colouring and there were some wierd funny ones like The girl on the right wears Chanel no'5 while the girl on the left wears Calvin Klein or The Boy has found his sweetheart etc.Anyway, my colouring was tres PHENOMENAL which is why calv's one got cut out(: *

ANYWAY,
since you cant take pictures at the SAM.
my fave artwork was the one where there were random tiny squares with 3D objects like Beyblades, Mickey Mouse,Calculator,Shoes,Spiderman,Tigger,Bride etc objects stuck on them! super fun to play I SPY with(:

* i almost didint find the RED PENGUIN S=

ate at THAI XPRESS~
and can finally use discount card!
woopee wee.
i dont get the 10% discount then + back 10% service charge either
HAHA(:

okay that was fun.
NSM should be free for students.
like period.):
lucky rachel gets to go for free to all exhibits.

THE AFTERMATH was fun too(:
chilling with t.
(:

* not to forget that PHONECALL from my darling girlfriend SYALALA whom is prolly in KL already, HAHA. i can never forget the PAU stories! please type out all 12 steps babe(:*

t. rocks.
t, fooodie!

had cheesecake with the darling!
at cheesecake cafe which is absolutly beautiful to dine in at!
ahh!(:

and yay! my vicky is back(:
bought bought.(:

nw broke!

I FEEL FAT.
thanks mom.-.-

2008-12-11T07:02:00.000-08:00

i feel like frugging crying every frugging second.
it is afterall my idea.
ayes.

and i wanna do well.
so badly.
):
so so so badly.
why is it so hard.
i feel so handicapped that no matter how much blood i put in
the output sucks.

i really want to.

2008-12-11T06:53:00.001-08:00

lets see.

HOLIDAYS *ahem NOT* have started.
and i had

accounting on the 9th * which i can only pray i did okay): coz i didint get to finish it, after the 3days. omg*

work the next day * 12 pm to 8pm at SHAW house ISETAN, JAP MARKET * for one week
Bros Bday on 13th Dec
Work will extend till 9pm ):

Frigging deadlines.
- TCS group project submission at 9am on 31st Dec 08
- CSIT INDIVIDUAL research paper by 9a.m on 2nd January 2009
- TTB Project Draft on 2nd January 2009
- FESTIVALS project submission on the 7th of Jan 2009 * i am still keen on D, hais *
- FESTIVALS project presentation on the week of 12th Jan 09 at TAS
( 1. The posters used for the in-class presentation are to be sent back to TP by Friday afternoon, 16 Jan ’09, Friday. Please ensure that you indicate your members names, admin number and tutorial class number on the back of the posters.

2. Set-up for the posters at the Concourse will take place on 17 and 19 Jan ’09. Each company is expected to send one representative to assist with the set-up on 17 Jan, Saturday at 9am. )

- TCS Indv Proj on Balinese Submission on 16th Jan 2009
- TTB Final Powerpoint which has to be less than 500KB on 16th Jan 2009
- TTB issue discussion 2 on 2 Feb

god help me. ):
AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2008-12-11T06:51:00.001-08:00

ever since that melancholy post.

i want to thank soleha for the call you made.
you cheered me up * 100000000000000000000000000.
gosh, what i would do just to see you again):

we meet so rarely.
i so miss you):

2008-12-08T07:20:00.003-08:00

i miss being friggin thin):
especially the tummy area
and the thigh area
and the half the ass area):

2008-12-02T09:57:00.001-08:00

What is bliss ?

Bliss comes in the form of a brown paper bag with the letter M
and a cup with ice lemon tee

Bliss comes with the smell of fries wafting in the air
and sweet softy goodness*MM*
at what time.
the time i published this.
1.58 what?
a.m

and i got my ice cream * winks*

what happy night/mrng.
perhaps there is a bryte side to this week after all.

thank you YOU.
without you
i would never had gotten through this week.

call me wen u get back(:

2008-12-02T05:49:00.000-08:00

sometimes it dsnt take a long period of time to know who your
true friend is.
sometimes its just close to 2 years that you find someone.

TP would never have been the same without you madeline dearest.
thank you for being my friend.

[a=33][c=1][b]MAD ELINE's. SUNFLOWERS[ /a=33][/b sent 12/2/2008 8:57 PM:
HEY reen. hope ur ******* is feeling better now and u r feeling better now, after the submission. : ) seeya tml at same time. : )

[a=33][c=1][b]MAD ELINE's. SUNFLOWERS[ /a=33][/b sent 12/2/2008 8:58 PM:
oh and i read ur blog. dun think that if u die, no one will remember u ok. u r always my tpbestie. : ) and seriously, i think i wouldn't have survive the terrible sentosa trip each day without u. : )) so of course, u have always been great and wonderful. ; )) thanks! haha! : D take care and rest well, at least for today! *poof* i'm off. : )

.r.e.e.n - your bvlgari chest. says:
madeline dearest, thanks for being so sweet and understanding. ur my confidante . a true loyal friend who i can always trust. thank you(: love you!

ayes.
this girl has touched* me and showed me the true meaning.
of TRUE friend.
sweetest ever.
(:

* pimples overdose due to lack of sleep. BAH! *

2008-11-29T08:26:00.000-08:00

love it

2008-11-26T05:41:00.000-08:00

just need to vent some inner frustration
not to anybody
but mostly myself.

i think i suck.
smhow i am sarcastic 4*
i am too panicky n rushy
i am wordy in email..
i suck.. * did i mention this*
nbdy to sugar^^^^ with
all offers get rejected..mostly
dejection is sorta becming a norm
mrt seats.
skool is going in my skin and i cant even manage my time
what happend to tutorials? nvr do.
i think teachers have a bad impression of me
i think i am falling apart but i am in denial * how ironic as i type this*
i dont want to think i lost my motivation
i keep * i think-ing* , so freakinn low confident.
oh sins. the many sins

i really really am not liking myself now.
really..

what do i have to be proud of?
and all ard me everyone's getting their chances and big break.
i feel like *nothing* suddenly.
lost my spark to do things with enthusiasm
and i think i am a mean person):
boring and mean.

and i seem to get the feeling of
* if i die, will anybody remember me for a long term *
smhow it heads to NO.
i know there are people who care for me,
family , t. ...
ayes. i guess i`m too self indulgent and selfish

- too wrapped up in myself
( the times i head this )

Anyway, i`ll just lock it up in me for now,
but the list adds on
and i loose myself.
but who cares.
no one.
coz no one..notices.

okay.
venting done.
projects back...

i really need my besties now, for a girl-on-girl day thing..
soleha, charlene, syalala, rachel. ):
with them, i guess thats when i feel i am mostly myself
and no matter what mean things i hear from them
i trust them enough to know they just want to help me
as the loyal friends they are. its a two way thing.
):

head hurts.
)"=

* is this PMS? is this the effect of hard-core schooling*

ah.
i should just shut up.

p.s :
Thank you Syalala for this past few days. With you around I dont feel that my life is all books if not DOOM much..ur company makes me happy(:

Thank you t.
you'll always be in my mind.
just that sometimes i need to do this.
to vent.
ilu kays(:

Thank you soleha.
that message made me smile,
you know etime i tink of you i smile...
the bestest person i ever meet

Thank you charlene.
for being my bestie
and being lame with me and entertaining my nonsense
and seeing that my NUTTYNESS is a form of craziness
instead JOIN ME(:
dun get pissed drunk ah!

Thank you rachel.
for the endless help in my schoolwork.
ayes.
i`ll always love you!
goodness you;re 18 tmr.

*(:*

2008-11-19T07:14:00.000-08:00

40 minutes to my 24 month!
how fast/slow time has passed by.
i havent decided.
i'm scared actually, not sure u really get me.
2008 has been a rough one and all I can do is
hope that 2009 will not be as bad):
but 2008 has also been one of the best ones with the newest things tried
accomplishments on both sides and an existing car permit
but one of the best part was the birthday and all the support to one
if the toughest point i hit this year
i'm upset i can't make tomoro special..
he said "its okay..and to make the best of the hour we have"

what happened to all the time in the world.
carefree days are over.
back to projects):

2008-11-15T23:17:00.000-08:00

a baby's innocence.
one of the things that makes life worth living(:

look back and feel blessed.
love you bf.
gosh.its gna be two years soon!
and looking back.
i have so many things to be bless-sed for...

you can drive(:
you dont drink ever
you dont smoke
you take care of me and make me all fuzzy and warm
and bestestly, you make me feel like no matter what happens,
you'll always be around.
love you t.
loads.

2008-11-12T17:35:00.000-08:00

PAST MEMOIRS FROM TRIP AT MALACCA.

DADDY IS ON THE RIGHT!HAHA.
FAMILY!(:

the gramps before children days ...

A&W at 'Jejantas Ayer Keroh'
(to end the last day there )
pardon the messiness and unglamness
drinks ahoy!
big big cups + lalats + cut of man's head
yo bro!
WAZZUP!
xmas prezzie(;
VANILLA ICE CREAM!!!
curly wurly friezy(:

Traffic was horrigible to get back to Sg.
Happy Deepavali (:

2008-10-24T08:28:00.000-07:00

hey ho(:
i plan to blog abt the rest of what i am suppose to blog on during my stay in malacca(:
from saturday all the way till monday):

so for now i will just mention about my first week at school.
not really week lah.
2 days.
HAHA.

so first day woke up real early
and i realise that if i leave my house at 7.43 , i will reach simei mrt at 7.45 and the train will come at 7.47 which will then head to outram by 8.15 , then from outram and its walk to harbourfront platform ( slow walk ) it will let me reach harbourfront mrt at 8.25, by then going up the escalator all the way to imbiah, i will reach by 8.48? HAHA.
so maybe can be ABIT late.
but next week i am gna start with madeline , so see how lurh(:

the school is HUMONGOUS!
and though it felt lonely going there the first day since most of my friends have different timetables and are doing ITB ASIA ( i regret not joining SA )
so anyhoo.went for Acctg lecture.
abit dry and then went to meet T.
slept!

Next day, school started early,
waited for Alice but alas she was caught in a traffic jam.
almost late!
met dennis ! yay.
found out kimbo was in my class
so far : dilah,kimbo,alice,albert,haziq in my class. hmm.
okay dry lessons.
finally over
and slacking aft lunch at banquet!
haha. funny and OPEN!

wednesday.
SHOPPING DAY
supposedly to be a window shopping day but I CANT RESIST lurh(:
loves.
went to suntec ( t. can t stop oohing and aahing at action city gadgetries,arcade's RAMBO, and alot of other knick knacks like 13.90 singing cards! at precious moments ! )
HATE-ing the machines that allow you to pick up soft toys!
STUPID TRICKERY!
the owner places them in a spiecific position so one will LOOOSE!
and the bloody CLAW is FLIMSY! GAHH!
it hooks innocent girls wanting new soft toys.
darnnn!

thursday!
went to school an hour late for an hour lecture.
(FULLSTOP! )

friday!
today.
watched mama's boy ( forgot i watched before )
and crashed.
happyness!!!!!!!!

2008-10-19T08:04:00.000-07:00

HAPPY NEWS THAT I CAN DO SOMETHING NEW WITH MY BESTIE!
WORRIED NEWS THAT SCHOOL STARTS TMR AND I GTG ALONE COZ I DONT NOE ANYONE ( yet! hopefully! )
SAD NEWS COZ I MISS MY BABY AND I DIDINT GET TO SEE HIM TODAY): ,perhaps tmr
RELIEVED NEWS THAT I DID THE LAST THING I COULD DO TO SAVE A FRIENDSHIP THAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN LOST A LONG LONG LONG TIME AGO. ( if thats the case, ahwells, i tried my very best and if those actions aint reciprocated than you know how it ends and well, this friendship aint born to last, anyhoo, a friend lost = a friend gain , maybe not now but perhaps the future! (: and i have the bestest ppl who have my back and thats all i need, for now...)
ANGRY NEWS COZ I AM GETTING FAT AND NOT DOING ANYTHING ABT IT
BELATED NEWS AT THE PRESENTS I AM STILL GETTING SO FAR! ( loving it to bits!!!! )

OKAYS THATS ALL NEWS FOR NOW.

2008-10-09T02:35:00.000-07:00

hello people. finally i am back for another update. well i have decided that even if people dont read this, i am writing it for my own benefit. 30 years down the road, i can look back at my entries and see how i really am etc.
well. i am now gna PICTURE UPDATE the things i have mentioned before. coz my internet is really good today(:

firstly.

scarlet hotel visit with the lovely naddy!

first time experience for her
it was a fabulous place with a warm vibe
i totally wouldnt mind working in but the distance
KILLS.
really pretty rooms but the 3 rules were
NO making loud noises
NO drinking water ( err. mineral? )
NO picture taking

but obv when we're clear of managers we did sneak a few.
nad kept saying the covered seating area would be awesome for sheesha!
i on the other hand , too busy wondering what working there would be like.

BTW if you're asked t guess the red artwork on the
walls of their restaurant DESIRE.
ITS NOT!!! naked bodies against wach other *ahem*
its...CAPSICUM!
sheesh...AHHHHHHHHHHHHH(:

next up, nasha's sweet sixteen surprise on 08092008

wasnt able to fast so i blew 4 balloons
4 of them with the messages HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN NASHA on each one to be exact!
this was after meeting nadia who just finished school.
we met at tamp and after settling mums stuff agreed to take bus 10? 14?
we told nasha not to leave her house till we called her to get us but the plan was to surprise her with the balloons, Hilary singing Sweet Sixteen in the backgrd and bubbles.
plan half succeeded and we looooved teh expression on her face!
last year her bday was a day of MANY MANY MANY balloons and FIREWORKs,
very special so this year, her o level year should never be any less (:
it was a great night of songs and present opening.
and the best part was the choco cake, melting the b&j's and the many dishes for buka(:
YUMMY!

p.s : the cookis was supposedly 17th and when nadia told me it was her 16th i was like YOU GTA BE KIDDING ME ( to teh point i called her gundu and I was liek SHIT ) called F.Amos and managed to change the number. PHEW(:

thirdly,

ijc pae mates reunion. Sept 16

the meet between current ijc-ians and 2 polyians ( atiqah (aka, linda ) and reen (aka, martin/fizzy b. )
met these lovelies after work!

ate at some food junction at marina square coz apparently NASRI lovesssss
the popiah there!
i've never eaten at marina square other than its ljs, cavana, breeks,swensens
SO! this was new.
remind me never to buy the fish there.
pictures totally trick ya!

so then we walked around to take pictures and we ended up at some
metal contraption!
Which looked so cool but was the most UNCOMFORTABLE AND PAINFUL CAM-HOAR*ing experience EVER!
*looks at line marks on leg*

but i missed them sooo much it didint matter.
and this was on top of the fact that my stupid contact was stuck in my eyelid AGAIN!
( I AM SOOO GNA CHANGE BRANDS NOW! happens to many times )
and i went around with only an eye open):

pictures and goodbyes.
i reached home at 11pm.
oh sweet bed!
too bad there's work the next day!
BOTHER!

and the last to the items i have mentioned : 1h04 chalet at aranda country club!

LOVE THE PICTURES.
finally together
thoguh i came afetr work and only saw this great bunch of people for like,
2 hours it was worth every second spent.

* perasaan yang sungguh sedih apabila ku tidak dipedulikan olehnya. Setiap kali ku masuk di kamar yang dia berada, dia akan keluar dengan alasannya *

THE NEXT POST WILL BE ON

- F1
- 5th OCTOBER BBQ at my condominium
- END of work
- 7th OCTOBER with charlene and T.
- 9th OCTOBER with soleha ( Zainuddin's Birthday )
- 10th OCTOBER - movie and lovely nasha and nadia
- BABY PICTURES from jalan raya part 2 on 11th OCTOBER ( Ameera's Birthday )

2008-10-01T20:48:00.000-07:00

hey people(:
i`m at work now.

and yes! woohoo to internet excess
or i`d rot to bits.

5th oct coming soon
i`m worried not many people are coming
and that there wont be any fun
*travun shakes his head coz i am worrying too much*
i should totally go with the flow right
but really, i cant):
preparing streamers while sorting stuff out at work now.

fot those who dont know yet,
i work at cpf, tanjong pagar, behind a desk 8.30 to 6pm.
gah!
i bet none of you can imagine reen sitting all day behind a comp doing that.

another thing you many not know,
tho i reckon NO ONE READS MY DEAD BLOG ever since the password thing
i am having a 18th/party /bbq on the 5th oct.
no, my bday is on 7th oct .
and yeah(;
so far only a handful of ppl are coming):
guess coz its raya.
but i cant do it on 12th coz ppl start skool on the 13th.
sadness.
I JUST HOPE EONE HAS FUN(;
they're coming only after 7 most of them
*hmm*
anyone who wanna come just message or sms me.
starts at 4pm on a sunday!
THE MORE THE MERRIER

updates :

- F1
- Mad stopped working coz of sensitive skin ( so i`m having my first lunch here!! alone ): )
- A HUGE THING NOT DONE FOR HARI RAYA FIRST DAY ( nothing materialistic ! )

2008-09-20T00:53:00.000-07:00

goodness.
been pretty busy keeping myself occupied this few days.
mainly WORK at cpf,tanjong pagar but luckily,
managed to squeeze some ijc pae reunion in .

i cant wait to work for F1.
woopie dee!
26th to 28th.

and my birthday!
i really dun wanna work on my bday.
really):

and hopefully wen the pay comes in which is after my bday,
i can get the things I want. HAHA. not need.
(:
mum says dont count your chicken before they hatch.
but i cant help it!

- new wallet ( women's ripcurl prefereably long and leather bound , flashandsplash baby.)
- straw bag for sentosa! * this i cant wait to get on 13th oct for threesome cum reen/phoebe bday outing*
- new pencil case!
- new shoes ( size 37, i really want that 19.90 gold with crossed string one by vivie, i missed my chance to get it as orchard's john little. so ballet! )
- new gold havaianas in gold thin strap
- parfum, moonsparkle by escada
- clothes and dressies!

AND i havent shopped for raya.
damn it!
wednesday!
- new shoes
- new bag!

GAH!
i cant wait for kachings$$ to roll in.

anyway, this are really the materialest of things
and i ought to save if i wanna go overseas with my buddies.

all i want for my 18th is to have A friendship back.
and happiness for everyone.
honestly, everyone is so GLUM lately,
must be the weather.

i cant wait to gmax with naddy and nasha!
its like 3 seated, specially for US! HAHA
and and songs of the sea.

charlene said when she's rich she's
gona fly me off to some resort for my bday!

that would be soooo cool babe!
sides, it'd be really wonderful to get out of boringgg sg soon!
sg is totally burning my brain cells.
right nad?
(:

I WANNA DO SOMETHING CRAZY
DIFFERENT AND NEVER DONE BEFORE!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWEEEEEEEEE(:

each day that passes by,
i feel like i am missing a huge part in my life.
i wonder what it is.

P.s : why so few can come on 5th oct):

P.P.S : soleha! reply my message soon aite,please.

2008-09-14T08:23:00.001-07:00

i still have hope though.
and i will never give up on a friendship
i see not worth dying.
it takes 3 to be a 3some.

2008-09-10T09:37:00.000-07:00

first day of work just ended and it was hmm..
* will fill this in soon *

and i met h04 for chalet today!
lovely!

2008-09-09T08:03:00.001-07:00

i start work tomorrow.
8.45 am at tanjong pagar.
thanks to tempserv. for this opportunity.

i still feel like i was treated like some disposable trash.
unfortunately there are some things I can change and some things I cant
I've been telling the truth in terms of what i experience all this while
and they are just seen as excuses
what about those gossips ? are they even worth listening to?
they belong in a category lower than excuses.
A friend said " if they are your true friends, rumours wont matter cause they know you best. Rumours are just created to spike up tension between two people and create a wall that only true friends can break through the ones who arent will rebound."
So perhaps this is the other people who may have a problem?

2008-09-08T09:42:00.000-07:00

08092008.
NASHA CUZZY BIRTHDAY(:
awesome evening spent!
pictures soon!
hot shoes!

2008-09-06T23:00:00.000-07:00

i guess i can write freely now that i have been replaced.
i lost a good friend of mine due to a misunderstanding which
i kept hoping didint happen but thats life and it makes me sick
to be living in a world like it.

it must be the clash of two outspoken people
and a introvert caught in the middle.
crying about it is useless because as said by * " it shows i want pity from others"
but I guess when i do cry, it's coz i am hurt that just by one word from another party and rumours
it can ruin a friendship.

mrs ang did say, its times like this you will find who your true friends are.
and its true that I put in alot of effort in my friendships, more than they deserve
so maybe its time to eliminate those whom actually are deserving of this.
Because, its due to this people whom hurt me that makes me think back,
is it all worth it.

i was in denial.
the reality has clearly been plastered right infront of me.
it's been something i keep running away from so now
its TIME.
time to change and notice.

as some of my closest friends have heard,
ething seems to be a downfall to me this year.
from friend to school to cca to rltnship.
now that each category has a certain direction fixed but still altered by the unexpected,
i have started to define the direction which i am to follow.

i dont want to be a replaceable friend.
i want to be a friend.
(:

* this is where i say, i feel so dumb, useless but i shall say i know things can change, because i believe i can change and so what if people still treat me the same way , as long as I know it myself than its all that matters *

I still have the family to be by my side.
and the few friends.
and this is better than having the MANY friends but none
whom know you well.

2008-09-06T07:59:00.001-07:00

today was THE SCARLET hotel ( http://www.thescarlethotel.com/) site visit.
unfortunately there was NO
PICTURE TAKING ALLOWED
DRINKING PLAIN WATER allowed due to spillages
and
TALKING LOUDLY .

and TM with the coolio bro!
yoyo!

back wid updates and pics soon.
so maybe i did bend the rules abit.(:
hee

2008-09-03T07:08:00.000-07:00

last minute day but absolutly FUNtastic.
had yoga with syafiqah
and http://www.maxloong.com/.
hot.

2008-08-31T22:43:00.001-07:00

the rain totally reflects how i am feeling now.
2008 has been really challenging for me.
and i`m turning 18 soon.
more responsibilities.

i hope i can see my besties- soleha,charlene,syafiqah,rachel,madeline,phoebe this week.
and not to forget cousin loves - naddy and nasha
and family relation love - ameera(:
so far i am going to be seeing charlene(:
* happy dance *

i just want to start over,
can all the bad things end soon.
please.

TAG replies / -

Sharlene :
exams are over for you! woopie dee.anyhoos the place aint hiring people anymore.oh boo): andand yessa! gossip girl.cant wait!

Madeline :
Thank you for always being there for me madeline, and i wont forget the wonderful people aka you around.guess this year is just tough, but i have to see the positive side of it all, at least I *hopefully* learn.

Naddy :
YOU SO MISS THEM KAN! but u miss me the mostest(:
hees. baby, i wanna buka at mad jack with you again ok, with nasha oso lah(:
and irsyad and t. ( i will ask t to action puasa ! )

2008-08-29T07:42:00.000-07:00

A SIMPLE DAY. A PERFECT END.

woke up pretty early today.
like 8.30 and rushrush to meet soleha bestie.
so like 9.30 we trained to terminal 3 changi airport
she's never been there before! so yepyep.
got lost trying to find mcdees which we were going for
breakfast at and saw hongpeng ( whom asked abt NADIA! HAHA )
anyhoos. i had hotcakes sausage and soleha had her big breakfast.

then we took some pictures.

and rushed to ccss.
bought a daisy waezy for mrs ang before that.
something yellow and sunny just like her KIND personality.(:
lala.
so we quickly went to catch up with mrs ang and ms chan and mr barry coz
soleha had to leave soon for work):
* remembering that illegal feeling while taking the school lift* hees.
and passed them the pink boxes ( with cupcakes! )
oh here they are!

haha.

walked her back and joined travun.philip and dom.
thenn we went to catch up with the concert and ms chan.
and boy were the singing AWFUL.
and that is putting it lightly.
GAH! was it so bad when we were schooling?
or were we so mesmerized by modern dance which i now totally see
as BLAH! i tink its too much of step up 2.'
took some pics.
*here*
the first pic was a long time ago!
post Os

and atikah! i cldnt find you. or rather i kept missing you):
aww man.
didint have a chance to get a shot with ya!!

then i rushed to i corner of DNT room to show you all this.
i`m sad they tore my folio and only extracted THIS.
but at least my piece of work or olevels is there(:
yay me.
*took a shot for junior and friends *
and eventually went home after getting lunch.

night time came.
and boy it was awesomes.
i went downstairs at around 8.20 pm to go for a swim.
and t. dropped by.
I SWEAR swimming at night is the ULTIMATE COOLIO for sho`
*superman, synchronised swimming,diving,jacuzzing and bubbles*
ahh.
finished swimming by 10.20 pm.

AHHHH! i love today.
aplentyful(:

to a dear friend who just smsed me about where to get WIGS.
AHAHA.
halloween?
anyways, thank you for sharing with me the things you've been feeling this past few months.
and coincidentally we're facing the same dilemma on top of the things happening at home.
dun worry!
i`m sure we'll get through this together.
and we'll be smily again(:
hopefully.
as time passes. lets hope for the best.

she said
" i shouldnt waste tears on people who dont deserve them.
and that i put too much value in friendship.
not everyone is deserving of this"

sucks to be home.

2008-08-25T09:03:00.000-07:00

TEN TIMES HARDER!
and to overcome the emotionally felt accounting paper.

i shouldnt feel lonely.
i'm not.
right?

2008-08-22T08:53:00.000-07:00

the way it used to be...
goodness.
i miss you two so much):

* You're a true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend
You don't get angry when I change the plans
Somehow you're never out of second chances
Won't say "I told you" when I'm wrong again
I'm so lucky that I've found*

2008-08-20T06:29:00.000-07:00

20082008
21 months(:
how many days is that(:

* You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby*

HEY SHONA!
lovelove you!

2008-08-18T05:47:00.000-07:00

The evolution of the MALAY TRADITIONAL DRESS :
a showcase by LASALLE and SMU Malay Language Cultural Club

2008-08-15T21:42:00.000-07:00

semester 2.1
has ended with the one of the best and most fun initiative taking class ever!
it has made my 2.1 experience really enriching.
although there were some downs for me,
as they as, they will be UPS.
lifes a roller coaster..

class fotos.
from LAST BESE lesson!

LAST CYA DAY TODAY was great(:
started with POPEYES with the firday crew, well half of em.
pictures soon!

*oh shoots, i`m down with flu and daddy gt chilli crab for consumption*
tudd.

2008-08-13T07:16:00.000-07:00

today marked the last day of SSM
for me and wednesday's awesome crew.
and we broke the TCA record of 2228
woopie dee(:

well i will update more soon.
but i wanna give a HUGE shoutout to AMEERA, SHAFIQ, CHARLENE , CALVIN jr and TRAVUN for coming all the way to support me
you guys rock FOR SHO!
(:
love

update :

Here are the records that were set during this week's operations at Sugarloaf:

Monday - $2,031.50

Tuesday - $2,142.50

Wednesday - $2,235.00

Thursday - $2,608.60

And..........

Friday - $3,625.00.

update 2 :
i cant believe i am putting this up but yeah.
here you go people.

SSM PICTURES

MR GOH

MS MARK

MR NEO

MR MALIK

and mr zainal wasnt with us that day):
he is the bestest ;most definitely

the gifts for them:
____________________________________________

ALL TOGETHER NOW!

*Vanessa : i am wishing i compiled all polaroids and took a snap of it.darn! *
Reen on SSM :
the past 14 weeks doing ssm has been an enriching journey forme

2008-08-11T09:53:00.000-07:00

SONGS I AM IN LOVE WITH!

Pocketful of Sunshine - Natasha Bedingfield

7 Things - 2008 - Miley Cyrus

Always Be My Baby (Studio) - David Cook

Happy Ending - Mika

Forever - Chris Brown

If I Never See Your Face Again - Maroon 5 ft. Rihanna

2008-08-10T08:07:00.000-07:00

NATIONAL DAY PASSED(:
and i didint watch the parade!
but i did something else special for my friends(:

2008-08-04T07:28:00.000-07:00

After a fabtastic weekend.

its back to skool yo!

this week
i`m left with

geog fieldtrip reflection
bese individual project

the finale : JAP ROLEPLAY!

once this is done, its time to study!
yupyup.

well today was great.
it seems like Andy will have a theme song every week.
It was
" tell me why, aint nothing but a heart ache " Last week
and this week it is
" Ooops i did it again? "

and suddenly audrey has caught the disease
and i cant stop thinking of her
" ICE ICE BABY ! " HAHA.
* add geleking ( shaking ) ur ass here *

ASS! FASTER ! *dont say this near esther, she is tres sensitive bout it! HAHA *

anihoos.
i wish i could have joined madeline phoebe at toptable today,
but the food was inedible for me):
and so i cldnt come..
perhaps its for the best,
i would have been scolded for wasting his SPACE.

but it is over now.
someday things will be different.

cant wait to finally go out with mad and phoebe.
somewhere we can all 3 eat.

loves.

2008-08-03T09:09:00.000-07:00

did i mention?
coz well,
today was awesomely SWEET!
a drive through orange lighted tunnel * he knows i love this! *
starting off with Mrs Fields Triple choco brownie
and THE MUMMY 3 was good.
with chicken nibbles and lover's popcorn
on to
gladiators from far east
after getting a tad bit lost there, again
A drive to marina for swensens late brunch
and esplanade park(:
where the sky colour changed
and the flyer blinked red and pink
with wind blowing without stopping
and delighting* a caucasian couple from thailand
and a drive back
full of tranquility and happiness(:

* i hope!

ohoh.
did i mention!
t. love wore his zara men shirt with black formal pants and
leather shoes.
his shoes look so good.

so MAN.

and you'd never guess how much what i wore costed(:

nadia goes * OMFG*
hahaha(:

I am attracted to you
Like an electron to a proton
Together we form an ionic bond
Though we are opposite charged ions
I am drawn towards you
Our love is unique as an orbital
For only two electrons can fill this space
As my love for you increases
My energy level rises
I am in this excited state
Increasing the tendency to form a chemical bond
I was an element
It took you to make me a compound substance
Falling in love with you is a chemical reaction
Which cause my love for you to grow
Ours is an exothermic love
Each giving of love not just absorbing it
Sometimes you do something especially nice
Which speeds up the chemical process
Like a catalyst in my increasing love for you
I realise we have our inhibition periods
And sometimes I am selfish enough
To be an endothermic reaction
Only absorbing your love
The feeling i have for you is so intense
It cannot be measured in kilojoules
Often I have to make a qualitative elementary analysis
To understand and love you more
But i don't expect to know your empirical formula
You are too complex a person for that

WHEN YOU ARE GONE
I AM A NOBLE GAS
AN INERT SUBSTANCE
WHEN I AM WITHOUT YOU
THE WORLD SEEMS STILL
AND I AM AT EQUILIBRIUM.

2008-08-02T06:35:00.000-07:00

"i am scared" mummy said
saw my face then said
" dont cry lah" mummy said.

but i still did.
booh):
mummy went off on an airplane
first time traveling herself!
and wont be back till next monday!
she's of of offf to Mecca and Madinah for Umrah
( this is called religious tourism)
i miss mommy already.

2008-07-31T10:53:00.000-07:00

It is just a misunderstanding.

not here to make enemies.

life is already hard as it is.

2008-07-31T07:11:00.000-07:00

life's really taking a toll on me.
i want my friend back.
i dont want quarrels at home.
i want to do better in school but it just demoralises me more to
see pathetic grades and come out from tests feeling clueless):

but you cant always have everything you want.
can you?

on the verge of giving up.
things are already so bad.
if i give up, things will get worser than they already are.
so what can i do,
i can just move on and WORK HARDER.
how is this possible when everything seems so bleak
and there is no motivation.

i`m really tired.
let me hear something happy.
once will do.
for now.

tick tock.
time still passes.
and with time, things will get better? right.
i hope so.

2008-07-29T08:59:00.001-07:00

TODAY WAS HOT!
(:
literally!

2008-07-29T08:56:00.000-07:00

city tour with the class was awesome
and i felt the guide knew so much about singapore to the
point i never heard half of the things she talked about before.
it was a new experience learning new things!
i enjoyed it very the much.
haha(:

pictures and details soon. ( mr png! , mouldy bread, squirrel , baby merlion )

ohyeah! fish&co with 07 is love.
and esther has found a new love in sweetlips empress
and i have for classic ice cocoa from starbucks!
ahh! heavenly!

2008-07-28T05:58:00.001-07:00

current tv addiction
since i`m done with ugly betty season 2
and all 18 episodes of gossip girl
and desperate housewives season 4

IS.....

LIPSTICK JUNGLE!

i should start on sex and the city soon!(:
after exams i shall!
HAHA(:

yay!

2008-07-28T05:53:00.000-07:00

Selena Gomez & Demi Lovato VS Miley Cyrus & Mandy Jiroux

2008-07-22T06:44:00.000-07:00

NO.

i am not okay.
and neither are you):

is this the end?

*why does this always happen to me. am
i so unlucky and not destined to have
______. i feel useless. *

on the other hand, i still have 3 tests to go.
so since so, i shall just leave it here.
and focus.
god,help me.

have you ever felt alone before?
i do.

2008-07-20T09:19:00.000-07:00

YAYYY!
there is a sequel to my corrent fave all time movie
which made me cry i might add

SISTERHOOD OF THE TRAVELLING PANTS!
where ugly betty ( AMERICA FERRERA ) and serena van der woodsen? ( BLAKE LIVELY! ) actresses are in!
YAY YAY YAY.
this was released in 2005.
but i just watched it!

SISTERHOOD OF THE TRAVELLING PANTS 2!
the 2008 one has been completed.
woopie dee.

GIRLS!
i highly recommend ya'll to watch this.
includes : hothotboys.

2008-07-20T07:14:00.000-07:00

good evening everyone(:

before the 20th of JULY 2008 marking the 20 months for
t.&r. ends..

i totally have to blog abt today.
before depression ( hopefully not! ) and stress from studies and upcoming test looms by.

okay well today was fabtastical(:

and it started of messy but t has a plan for ething.

and so we went to kallang leisure park where we just sat in the car at the carpark and began eating the cheesecake from the cafe he bought ( yippee! new tastes for me to try )
its as good as it looks(:
afterwhich, with rain pelting and not exactly wanting to go KLP.
we cammies(:
then we went to change from his sissys car to his dads and headed to TM.
while waiting to parn and such we went about singing all this old songs and whistling the parts we didint know together.
what a blast hahaha

then it was TM
aft returnign momma's book we went to TOYS`R US.
where i got an amazingly cute orangey monkey water bottle*winks*
and we gt matchy matchy tigger and pooh baby sofeties(:
yayness!!!

then he drove me to eastpt
where we got i went to get tokoyaki
( nad! they have ham&cheese )
and trav's muah chee and dragon's beard! ( which he let me try ! and it is awesome goodness i tell you! i am so gna buy one tomorrow(: )
yay! two new tastes today!

time to loose weight.
haha right!

okayokay.work reen
work!

the leap years! says:
hello shona
the leap years! says:
sry sry
the leap years! says:
i reached home
the leap years! says:
had dinner
the leap years! says:
watch abit of tv
the leap years! says:
now i just came out from showering
the leap years! says:
call u in awhile
.r.e.e.n - HELLIOUS WEEK 1 done. WEEK 2 next says:
love

2008-07-19T22:27:00.000-07:00

good afternoon ladies and gentlemen(:
i am feeling abit better.
coz alot of nice nice nice things have happened.

what i did this week :
letting my grpmates know the joy of shimmery slime
giving mad TWO eggytarts
completing my projects!

ON TOP OF THIS.......

first time eating my bros FnN cooking and i must say it is not bad...he said there was an R on top but it gt squashed when he closed the lid of his tupperware! hahahaha. coffee cuppycake!

AND AND..
my bro got me dbl choc chip SUBWAY cookies.
wayy sweet!

he told my dad on the way home from mindchamps
" BABA! i got kikin a COOOK-KEY(: "

love to him THIS WEEK.

up next.

groupmates after TTO

THIS IS WHAT I CALL FAN-tastic!

ALL TOGETHER NOW~!
OF moustache&chef hats

POSEY POSEY eys.

ending the week on saturday,

i watched.......
good movie, confused at some stage, nadia finally realised which one was heath ledger ( he acts well RIP ), felt some scenes were unnecessary coz perhaps i dont understand :S and i laughed alot! hahahaa. and i tink the COINman more scary than joker. hahahaha! EYEBALLS coming out.

with .........

and nasha new current week line is...........
and the day ended of with macdees which is SUPERB.

thank you mamai jorah, mama maidin and momma(: for cash, rides,tickets and what not.
yay!

what i have left for next week :
repay back 8days puasa
tto test on friday
jap listening test which i must do really well to subdue the D i got for jap 30bloody% test
AND
the ssm proficiency test on wednesday.

BEST OF LUCK TO ME.
thank you.

2008-07-17T02:21:00.001-07:00

JAPANESE test result WAS TERUK!
ahh.
what is happening man):

reeen reen!

2008-07-15T07:49:00.000-07:00

accounting test was teruk.
):
agh.
jap and tto here i come ):

2008-07-14T06:27:00.000-07:00

momma's flying on the 2nd of august saturday afternoon
till 11th of august):

2008-07-14T04:22:00.000-07:00

I WISH I WASNT BORN.sometimes
* i feel the need to type this coz i really really feel i do alot of wrong things.
and that results me to hurting so many other people's feelings.
and i make so many stupid decisions that put me in a dilemma
and i never do things i have the ability to do.*

so yes,
if I wasnt around,
sometimes, i really feel things would be better.
):

accounting test tomorrow.

&& maybe i`m just saying this coz i`m sad.
i've been feeling pretty miserable lately.
and i think i know why):
but its smthing i cant change.

never a bonus and never will be.
its not a necessity i will ever need from you.
maybe its a pleasantry once in a while..
its not important to me.
whats important is that you're with me.
i want a cuddle(:

2008-07-13T05:25:00.000-07:00

current wants.

i want a kate spade
US 94

US 221 US 131 US296 US 239

i want GLADiators.

i want black&&FLAT knee high synthetic seude boots

i may want it..
but dsnt mean i`ll get it):

ohyah! i need shorts.
haha(:
tadah!

2008-07-11T20:26:00.000-07:00

alright then.
so the week is OVER!
and it has been one of the MOST craziest week ever.
i have skipped BESE and JAP lectures. 3 weeks already.
&& thats really really super duper BAD.
in other news, jap test really sucked..maybe its coz
i didint really study for it...
usually i would the night before..
but the night before happened to be my ssm day!!*screams*
so i studied*** in the morning.
well, so far i have like 7 mistakes.
tsk...
like BANRAKU is ____ , SENHAPPYAKU is ______, unlucky numbers are _______, shinjo is what colour? ........ and MORE!

GAHHHH!
and its 30 % ( OMGZZZZZZ )

SO SSM.
well as i predicted.
i became assistant headwaiter.
and i only found out 2 days ago.
TRABLOODYLA.
so i rushed ething from pick up charts to details for the crew.
and trying not to panic everytime the headwaiter does.
its a really painful but delightful experience..
dont think i would mind doing it again..perhaps with a different person..

and i really feel we did quite well considering we had
62 guests...
the slackiest was 42 guests...and it made servicing seem GOOD.

last day at toptable for me ROCKED.
so yeah...i got prof test 2 coming up

& sir for your inspection
better not come out as
sir, your cork!
HAHAHAHHA

the good news is that
my geog ppt is yay! less than 500 kb. 496kb...
wah sui sui.
and tto is done altho there were some last minutes...
but its all done baby! with a nice appendix section and seperators.

now i've got...
TTO PPT,
BESE TASK,
INDIVIDUAL BESE for 8 August
JAP ROLEPLAY SCRIPTING

* GEOG PEER APPRAISAL ( 10 marks )

2008-07-05T10:41:00.000-07:00

i think i have partially lost myself somehow somewhere
i know i havent always been a strong person
but i once felt i was.
i know i'm not sensitive with whatever jokes people may have to say
and whatever lashings people give me like shouting in my face.
or maybe because its been a really really long time since i've recieved such treatment
and getting it now is like a slap across my face.
i keep telling myself, " there are going to be more people worse than this and if i am going to cry and melodrama over it, i will not survive"
but i still react like a dumb ass.
crying for ssm ( i cant believe i CRY during SSM ) looks even wierder to type
and that when mad's members were joking,
i freaking took it too heart.
):
i am so depressed.
to top it all off, the corrupted pictures i cant help feeling bad with):
ebody must be disappointed too!

ARGH
* i need to go somewhere and scream,cry and let out all my disappointment and rage, somewhere no one can hear me from*

WHY MUST THIS COME NOW?
i HAVE SOOO many deadlines already.
why why why.

ohgreat.
my classmate just called to say , be prepared to be AHW.
coz u are one of those who has never and will never been
and u do not have prof test 2.

):

and seeing how things are.
i might just be.

my head is talking and its saying:
BUT YOU KNOW SOMETHING REEN.
THIS ARE THINGS YOU CAN CONTROL.
SO CONTROL IT REEN.
THE WAY YOU SEE IT,
will be the way it will turn out to be.
so YOU JOLLYWELL TURN IT AROUND!

what it wrong with me.

sigh.

yours anonymously,
anon.

2008-07-04T23:37:00.000-07:00

this video is hot.
she's hot
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1lF4muY4xdU

2008-07-04T22:40:00.000-07:00

I AM DISAPPOINTED BEYOND BELIEF
THAT ALL MY RACIAL HARMONY PICTURES
2008 HAVE BECAME CORRUPTED JUST
WHILE TRANSFERRING FROM MY CAMERA THUMBDRIVE
to MY LAPTOP.
I HAD TO REFORMAT MY WHOLE XD cam card so ALL OTHER
precious pictures are gone!
):
all grp pix are gone.
i only have VIDEOS AND THIS

ALOT OF THIS LARH.

and all my groupie fotos
with tamil and syarah and
merlyn and sharlene
and pangcheng's muscles and head,yann chang a nd headband
andtravun and dom and philip and
barry and barry on motorbike
and mayamin,dinah,hazira,nafisah
AND miss chan, miss tricia LIM!!!
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
are ALL GONE.
F*ing GONE):

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
i even planned to put it all up on facebook la.
freaking precious.
gAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

okay.
its over.
time to focus on projects

and as travun said, there's always next time.
changkat please have a racial harmony 2009.

2008-06-29T03:00:00.000-07:00

if there's one thing I've learnt how to do :
it is to love you.
if there's one thing I have left to do :
it is to fully trust you.

and i do.
and until i fully do that and listen to you unconditionally,
when you tell me to study and not procrastinate
and to sleep early,
I am to trust you , because all you'd want is the best for me.
and I am to trust you because of this.

If there's one thing you know,
its me.
you know what drives me nuts, what pushes me, what saddens me, what makes me happy, what makes me high.
and when I am not sure who I am, you reinstate me,
you reassure me.

this should make you trust me.

reen <3 travun.

* no more she says *

i know i am mushy here, i cant help it...(: * BIG GOOFY GRIN =D *

2008-06-28T22:14:00.001-07:00

nadia's 18th birthday with nasha and kikin.

* before the outing started nasha gt lost trying to find F&Co. thinking i was telling her to find Figs and Olive...sheesh *

day started of with getting lost trying to find
FIGS & OLIVE @ Bencoolen street.
which we eventually found, after bumping into an AWESOME place to take pictures @ ...

once we reached F&O we quickly ordered and ate.

* wine glass holding *

this is when nasha gave us AWESOMELY cute bears(:

afterwhich, more picturetaking...

THE HIGHLIGHT :

after washroom@rendezvous and a long walk....
we went off to get DESSERT(:
yummy doodle.
@
Fish&Co.
while waiting for dessert to come...
the SURPRISE TAKES place with me blindfolding her(:
HEHEH..

and after several preperations....
she looked like this...

and the finishing touch,

KISSES FROM US...

and when the cake came, the birthday tradition by fish&Co. was carried out, which is awesome..
and thanks to a bunch of people also eating, we all sang for her.

* she looks darn happy with her SPARKLES! *

HAHA LOVE!

and opening nasha's present
the bag is AWE AWE AWE SOME!

picture taking again...

snext place, settler's at clarke quay!

* fairy princess needing cash! HAHHAAHA *

SETTLERS was fully PACKED):
so we went my fave...
PAISLEY AND CREAM!

nasha looks really good here(: HAHA

and then she opened presents

* WHATS THAt I SEE..I SPY...a...T BUTT BACK * HAHA

*i really wanna noe what she's thinking here! prolly something like " THIS GIRL IS RELATED TO ME?! ohmy*

and nasha had to go home, and me and nadia did too...surprisingly early..
so i went to crash her house!
mamali sent me home(: yay.

ITS BEEN THE BEST DAY.
I KNOW ITS NOT MY BIRTHDAY.
but i thoroughly enjoyed it.
i wish ameera, travun and shafiq could have came though,
it'd be soo fun(:

ONCE AGAIN, HAPPY 18th NADIA binte MOHD ALI!
its been a good 11th of JUNE.

apparently someone's friday the 13th went off supa great(:

2008-06-28T22:04:00.000-07:00

okay lalas.
it seems like my life in the blog world is kinda blah.
and well it kinda is BLAH!

things i havent blogged about that were sorta interesting would be
- nadia's birthday
- SSM lessons & prof tests
- fieldtrip with the tto group

and i really would wanna blog about them its just that..since i am not obliged to, i dont.
life's been dull
except for the occasional seeing travun and mad, phoebe and groupmates slack session.

and everythings taking a TOLL already.
and i want to sleep. like HIBERNATE but this is not possible because...

23 June:
1. BESE Report Submission, 5pm.
2. APEL Service Reflection.
3. BESE Peer Appraisal. (Week of)
4. BESE Field Trip Submission. (Week of)
5. BESE Presentation. (Week of)

27 June:
1. Geography Daft due, 12nn.

30 June - 4 July:
1. BOE Proposal Submission
2. SSM Written Test

7 July:
1. TTO Submission, 10am.

11 July:
1. Geog Submission, 12nn.

21 July onwards:
1. TTO Peer Appraisal.
2. TTO tour evaluation, 8.30-12nn.

8 August:
1. Geography peer appraisal.
2. Geograophy field trip evaluation.
3. BESE Individuall Portfolio Submission

After 8 August: Exams...

P.S : i hope things get better.
like ,i wanna join
THIS :

ANNOUNCEMENT STUDENT VOLUNTEERS NEEDED FOR THE FORMULA ONE^TM SINGTEL SINGAPORE GRANDPRIX, SEPTEMBER 2008 Singapore is hosting one leg of the *Formula One^TM 2008 World Championship* race series. It will be the first Formula One^TM street race in the ASEAN region and first ever night-time event in F1’s history. You now have the UNIQUE OPPORTUNITY to participate as Volunteer Staff in this history-making 2008 Formula One^TM Singtel Singapore Grand Prix. What you will receive: § Certificate of participation § Transport allowance of $10 per day § SEAL points § Pre-event training 3 easy steps to sign up: Step 1 – please register your interest with your class rep by providing your name (in full); student admin number; hp number. Class reps will forward to Mr Revi Nair at revinair@tp.edu.sg using the required template to be given. Step 2 – attend the briefing that will be held on 8 July (for LRM and HTM students) at Auditorium 2, from 4-6 pm. Step 3 – attend the interview session (please check your student email for date, time and location); the interview will be carried out on a group basis and will last for about 10-15 minutes per group. Please note that Kelly Services will be conducting the interviews and the selection process for the student volunteers. For more details – call 1800-227 3377 or email singaporegp@kellyservices.com.sg

...........and get to meet reeeeeeyan * i think *

P.P.S : i regret not joining SA.

P.P.P.S : i should stop procrastinating

2008-06-26T11:43:00.001-07:00

2008-06-26T07:46:00.000-07:00

those were the days, eating crunchie and applying chocolat lipstick with them. this is soo long ago. it actually feels like it was just yesterday.
the times when we were so carefree and goody two shoes.

syafiqah and reen talks.
and its like ething is behind us..for hours and hours on end.
lots of misses.

so is the car thing going to be a new tradition?
haha.
someday i will drive too!

2008-06-26T07:29:00.000-07:00

i cant stop thinking of a tank top looking like this!
i would buy it on the spot if i ever see this.
i reallly really think so.

i am fortunate to have you. now study hard baby.

* i want time to stop whenever i`m with him, perhaps because there never really is so much time...and as time passes the dawned upon inevitably will happen and it will really really really suck, so yes please, Freeze time, freeze it *

2008-06-22T03:25:00.001-07:00

Hayden Panettiere Lyrics
I Still Believe Lyrics

2008-06-20T08:45:00.000-07:00

* what happened to ur eyes sweetheart? haha *

happy 19 months

he is A-MAZE-ING! i love the way he looks in retro sunglasses! uber cute! ahhh(:
i love tandem biking! and i love letting him lie on my knee * though he thinks this causes me pain, i fail to see this as my thighs have doubled in size from secondary school and the fats have made me not feel any pain at all* i love it when we share abt airport stuff and i especially love the cute way he says things before he things and words like ROLEX becomes LOREX *haha! *handcufs* and when PHOTOGRAPHIC memory becomes PHOTOGENIC memory. omg. he cracks me up like MADness. but i let him say them cause it makes him, well, him(:
and bestestly. i love my rainbow hairband. AHHH!

and he's really really really AWESOMElicious.

* in crazy abt T. mode..okay wait, i am kinda always am*

SLEEPING WITH STYLE :b

2008-06-18T08:51:00.000-07:00

RANDOM POST-
came across while watching vidz
............................

who knew there were various styles and meaning to how couples sleep?
well i didint, so i found this quite amusing.

found this on the net! pretty funny.

How To Avoid Trapped Arm Whilst Cuddling In Bed

its funny when he does the SUPERMAN method.
ahaha.
" u can play computer games, text, read french poetry! " hahahahaha..

(:

2008-06-17T22:41:00.000-07:00

i always wondered what this phrase meant

" Dressed to the nines "

Dressed flamboyantly or smartly.

Origin

The phrases 'to the nines', or 'to the nine', were used to indicate perfection - the highest standards. That was in use in the 18th century, as here from William Hamilton's Epistle to Ramsay, 1719:

"How to the nines they did content me."
got this from phrases.org.uk.

2008-06-16T07:53:00.000-07:00

today was a good good day.
met mr army boy in the morning.
makes me deliriously happy.
he cooked me his special maggie while i prepared his prata for him.
then we jst chilled and played with the dice.
(:

then afterwards i finally met charlene for..
who actually cancelled but decided its time to not be an ASS.
and so she met me and we went TM to like, run my errands, chat,take pics.
and i got a WHOLE BOX OF FERRERO ROCHER...
* i can all you people's faces contorting into pout cz ur jealous *
and this cute looking london chocolat cake.
took pics and went home.

yay.

okay i gtg do some work,
go to sleep coz gt to wake up at freaking 7.30 am tmr to
bring LITTLE bro to the dentist tmr.sheeshs..

and yes, i gt lots of previous days to post on.
procrastinator! me

2008-06-14T03:35:00.001-07:00

WHAT FUCKED up DAY.

2008-06-12T09:53:00.000-07:00

baby come back.
i know times will never be the same again somehow.
i feel like a kite
being stringed along where life takes me.
it goes there and then.

i miss security.
i miss warmth.
i barely see.........

crap is this emo thing contagious?!
anyways, i wanna meet syalala, charlene and hannah .
call me!
i cant contact u guys.
and i need you guys coz life's a bust.

soleha asked, is it true in a relationship, everything starts all flowery and then everything bad starts showing up as time passes..
- i guess its true, coz the person is already part of you, the good parts and the bad ones, and as time waits for no one, it will be revealed in due time...which makes me realise, the people whom have short term relationships most of the time might be because of fear, the action of leaving because things turn bad and running away is the best option, is it cowardly? i really admire those relationships lasting 10 years, like, i really wonder how all this happens though i understand , there are problems........ however they know how to fix it...this makes the best couples(: i wish i can learn from them too...but its part of life, you learn yourself coz every relation you make is unique in its own ways. I cant imagine living in a dating life with a cyclical ' break up when things get bad ' and 'move on to others ,still with the same problem, enjoy the flowery romance' and when it gets tough ' BREAK UP'......

i'll live a life full of doubt.
that's when SHARING comes in handy.

2008-06-11T10:27:00.000-07:00

today was a fine fine day.
celebrated naddy's birthday

somehow i dont picture my 18th to be so special,
perhaps of what is happening lately.
ppl backing out, squabbles, blames, restricted feelings.
its not a good year.
and my study is atrocious,i gta buck up.
i need me.
i need wan.
i need zukhaireen.

gloom fills me.
):

i will update on the outing soon.(:

2008-06-11T10:23:00.001-07:00

is FREEDOM what you seek?
because i seek SECURITY.

what do you seek?

2008-06-09T09:34:00.000-07:00

cycled at east coast today with half of 07.
had a really good time wid a great class
PICs soooon(:
but it was tres tiring.
i bet aft tonights sleep my legs gna be cramp on tuesday.
but its okay since its project day with tto and geog groupies(:

afterwhich,went home did the stuff i needed to and went for dinner with 04 @ EHUB!
essentially one of the best class ever.
with madeline and phoebe! cant wait for our outing on wed!!! ( phoebe pls dont back out please(: )
there were some complications but they decided on pool.
i did wanna get my hands on bowling though.
heh(:
i had to go home in the end..
pooh): never get to pool.
its okay travun will pool with me right bf? haha.

i really really really miss you.
more actually.

then gta get supplies!

2008-06-08T06:47:00.000-07:00

i tore the flesh in the inside of my mouth today..
those pink ones..
which always have alsa's**
its freakin painful
and its all thanks to a tokoyaki ball.
a hot steaming oozing one.

i freaking miss u.

2008-06-07T01:13:00.000-07:00

One In A Million - Miley Cyrus

Its A test.
To see if we can withstand it
its not time yet.
please dont let it be.
its time for changes and effort.
chemistry takes place.
the past whats holding it together.
It's too strong to let go
like currents in the most rapid water.
It's time like this when i need you most.
deariez. i love you.
mm

2008-06-07T01:04:00.000-07:00

there are bigger lies than the ones you have just proclaimed to have done missy.

2008-06-01T05:00:00.000-07:00

i just wanna play catch in the fields with you, blow huge dandelions in your face and see that huge dimpled smile on you again. i wanna feed you chocolate and tell you everythings gonna be fine in the end. but i know cant do this.
not now, not at this time.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight,
I just wanna die in your arms

2008-05-27T07:06:00.000-07:00

I AM FREAKING HAPPY BLAKE LIVELY AND PENN BADGLEY CO-stars in GOSSIP GIRL are together...though in the last episode they had to break things of and stuff.
hopefully they wont in the next season!

LOOKS LIKE co stars are dating.
i loveeeee it.

xoxo,gossip girl.

YES I AGREE

ssm tomoro.
ohmygosh.
hopes to do well.
help me(:

2008-05-26T09:15:00.000-07:00

Shiseido make up lesson and hygiene today. Alot on underarm hair, face hair ( joint eyebrows= pervertic look) , bathing everyday is impt! ( AHEM) and shampooing...darn singapore for being so damn hot. So anyway since i didint have any gunk i decided to volunteer as their CANVAS for make up. Quite fun i must say, hahah...though it felt wierd to have foundation on my lips, eyelash curler near my eye ( i am freaked by that i swear..it looks like its gna eat my eyeballs! ), circular motion around mouth !

blue eyeshadow made me happy(:

heh and the mascara was quite hard to remove..

"so are you going on a hot date?"

"no.."

afterwards went to sugarloaf with beloved 07.
super fun(:
i had black pepper salad? and a mudslide!cookie and italian soda ( which frankly, i love phoebe's one more! (: ) Schweppz has a bitter aftertaste.

Audrey's teeeraaaamiiiiisuuu looks uber yummy
too bad i cant take it ( thankiew alcohol )

audrey u annoying tweeet(: haha.love you07 lovings
aminah and e-fatimah are like so COOOOL(:

meet tommy

2008-05-26T09:08:00.000-07:00

the new favourite thing
tommy-licious(:

and just like you baby, i cant sleep without tommy by my side....

2008-05-24T22:11:00.000-07:00

BASED ON MADeline's BLOG!
I HAVE A TON OF THINGS TO DO TOO):
its almost the same.

Accounting Tutorial Work ( EH! i dun even noe this ONE BIT )
BESE Tutorial Work
TTO project research
GeogTravel Project Research ( AGH! )
Japanese Presentation Preparation
Basics of Entrepreneurship Proposal!!!!!
GeogTravel Test Revision ( friday test )
BESE Test Revision ( THURSDAY )
SSM Revision + Memorisation ( WAITER ! )
Accounting Mid-Sem Test Revision ( SUPERR IMPT )

ohman.ohman.

2008-05-24T21:23:00.001-07:00

guess what i chanced upon!
hehe.

LOOOOK AT PHILIP! OMG SO SUPER AHPEK LA PLEASE! HHAHAHAHAH~

SEC3 camp photos.
and i know MR T has my FLYING FOX UNGLAMNESS all round pictures!
and i know i have this picture of us during nightwalk and soleha's eyes are closed and she is smiling so serenely! but i cant find it):
gah.(: i want it also.

i keep digging this up and burning back up coz they're memories i aint ever wanna forget

2008-05-24T09:39:00.000-07:00

chanced upon this photo which reminds me
i want my 3e2/4e2 cd back felica/sq.
PLEASE?!

i miss 4e2 and PE urgh,
gimme my skinnyness back.

ahh.its all FLAB now.
sucks!

2008-05-24T09:36:00.000-07:00

stop and stare.
* ahaha, i think this is such a victimised face *

noticed that the doll thing came up again.
3rd time.

would u rather a mannequin or doll.
both are statuesque figures after all...(:

yesterday was friday

2008-05-24T03:39:00.000-07:00

yesterday was friday.

fridays are busiest days.
friday nights are cya nights
cya nights make me happy.

while floating during cya's terminal 3
mad asked me " what i would do if tomorrow was the last day you'll ever lived"
and we started with our views..
come to think of it, what would i do..
i would wanna be with my loves one.
and yet i would wanna be alone to flashback all my wonderful memories
repent maybe, do the things i never had a chance to do?

everyone's been talking about the end of the world lately
with the olympics coming on 080808.
its kinda wierd..i just shush myself abt it.
sometimes u think, there's just so much you wanna do.
but so little time.

so anyway, we bought secret recipe's chocolate indulgence for break and ate it while waiting for trav to dry us home.
mad MIGHTve been abit hesitant abt it till i told her he drives safely i think.

2008-05-22T05:52:00.000-07:00

car rides with the boyf.
here's me fooling ard with the cammy while he drives coz i'm super sianded.
baby's really serious with driving
but i know he's loving every minute of it..
afterall its been all he's after since he's been 16 and taken the btt.
go go power ranger!

grooming is so overrated lalas.
i am freakin worried for my accounting
and today was an awesomely good goood goooooood afternoon
from gfs meetup (yay! i like) to games at t's.