ever felt as though u were looking through an album and u were so transfixed with its contents that ur surrounding just ceases to exist? -a walk down memory lane... looking at the photographs and juz thinking about its simplicity yet reaching it was quite complex from the very beginning you start to wonder abt how thingz have became the times that have changed and u begin cherishing what you have u grasp it tightly . not ever wanting to let go coz letting go would mean losing everything.. then you start deciding and realise ur desires that seem so big are juz little pigments now and that the smallest things end up mattering the most a walk down memory lane..enlightening. is it not?? =) (((:



ONCE,AGAIN, NAVIGATE with the words " THIS IS MY LOVE STORY!"!!

love it

just need to vent some inner frustration
not to anybody
but mostly myself.

i think i suck.
smhow i am sarcastic 4*
i am too panicky n rushy
i am wordy in email..
i suck.. * did i mention this*
nbdy to sugar^^^^ with
all offers get rejected..mostly
dejection is sorta becming a norm
mrt seats.
skool is going in my skin and i cant even manage my time
what happend to tutorials? nvr do.
i think teachers have a bad impression of me
i think i am falling apart but i am in denial * how ironic as i type this*
i dont want to think i lost my motivation
i keep * i think-ing* , so freakinn low confident.
oh sins. the many sins


i really really am not liking myself now.
really..

what do i have to be proud of?
and all ard me everyone's getting their chances and big break.
i feel like *nothing* suddenly.
lost my spark to do things with enthusiasm
and i think i am a mean person):
boring and mean.


and i seem to get the feeling of
* if i die, will anybody remember me for a long term *
smhow it heads to NO.
i know there are people who care for me,
family , t. ...
ayes. i guess i`m too self indulgent and selfish

- too wrapped up in myself
( the times i head this )

Anyway, i`ll just lock it up in me for now,
but the list adds on
and i loose myself.
but who cares.
no one.
coz no one..notices.

okay.
venting done.
projects back...


i really need my besties now, for a girl-on-girl day thing..
soleha, charlene, syalala, rachel. ):
with them, i guess thats when i feel i am mostly myself
and no matter what mean things i hear from them
i trust them enough to know they just want to help me
as the loyal friends they are. its a two way thing.
):

head hurts.
)"=

* is this PMS? is this the effect of hard-core schooling*

ah.
i should just shut up.

p.s :
Thank you Syalala for this past few days. With you around I dont feel that my life is all books if not DOOM much..ur company makes me happy(:

Thank you t.
you'll always be in my mind.
just that sometimes i need to do this.
to vent.
ilu kays(:

Thank you soleha.
that message made me smile,
you know etime i tink of you i smile...
the bestest person i ever meet

Thank you charlene.
for being my bestie
and being lame with me and entertaining my nonsense
and seeing that my NUTTYNESS is a form of craziness
instead JOIN ME(:
dun get pissed drunk ah!

Thank you rachel.
for the endless help in my schoolwork.
ayes.
i`ll always love you!
goodness you;re 18 tmr.

*(:*

a baby's innocence.
one of the things that makes life worth living(: