ever felt as though u were looking through an album and u were so transfixed with its contents that ur surrounding just ceases to exist? -a walk down memory lane... looking at the photographs and juz thinking about its simplicity yet reaching it was quite complex from the very beginning you start to wonder abt how thingz have became the times that have changed and u begin cherishing what you have u grasp it tightly . not ever wanting to let go coz letting go would mean losing everything.. then you start deciding and realise ur desires that seem so big are juz little pigments now and that the smallest things end up mattering the most a walk down memory lane..enlightening. is it not?? =) (((:



ONCE,AGAIN, NAVIGATE with the words " THIS IS MY LOVE STORY!"!!

i guess i can write freely now that i have been replaced.
i lost a good friend of mine due to a misunderstanding which
i kept hoping didint happen but thats life and it makes me sick
to be living in a world like it.

it must be the clash of two outspoken people
and a introvert caught in the middle.
crying about it is useless because as said by * " it shows i want pity from others"
but I guess when i do cry, it's coz i am hurt that just by one word from another party and rumours
it can ruin a friendship.

mrs ang did say, its times like this you will find who your true friends are.
and its true that I put in alot of effort in my friendships, more than they deserve
so maybe its time to eliminate those whom actually are deserving of this.
Because, its due to this people whom hurt me that makes me think back,
is it all worth it.

i was in denial.
the reality has clearly been plastered right infront of me.
it's been something i keep running away from so now
its TIME.
time to change and notice.

as some of my closest friends have heard,
ething seems to be a downfall to me this year.
from friend to school to cca to rltnship.
now that each category has a certain direction fixed but still altered by the unexpected,
i have started to define the direction which i am to follow.

i dont want to be a replaceable friend.
i want to be a friend.
(:


* this is where i say, i feel so dumb, useless but i shall say i know things can change, because i believe i can change and so what if people still treat me the same way , as long as I know it myself than its all that matters *

I still have the family to be by my side.
and the few friends.
and this is better than having the MANY friends but none
whom know you well.