ever felt as though u were looking through an album and u were so transfixed with its contents that ur surrounding just ceases to exist? -a walk down memory lane... looking at the photographs and juz thinking about its simplicity yet reaching it was quite complex from the very beginning you start to wonder abt how thingz have became the times that have changed and u begin cherishing what you have u grasp it tightly . not ever wanting to let go coz letting go would mean losing everything.. then you start deciding and realise ur desires that seem so big are juz little pigments now and that the smallest things end up mattering the most a walk down memory lane..enlightening. is it not?? =) (((:



ONCE,AGAIN, NAVIGATE with the words " THIS IS MY LOVE STORY!"!!

goodness.
been pretty busy keeping myself occupied this few days.
mainly WORK at cpf,tanjong pagar but luckily,
managed to squeeze some ijc pae reunion in .

i cant wait to work for F1.
woopie dee!
26th to 28th.

and my birthday!
i really dun wanna work on my bday.
really):

and hopefully wen the pay comes in which is after my bday,
i can get the things I want. HAHA. not need.
(:
mum says dont count your chicken before they hatch.
but i cant help it!

- new wallet ( women's ripcurl prefereably long and leather bound , flashandsplash baby.)
- straw bag for sentosa! * this i cant wait to get on 13th oct for threesome cum reen/phoebe bday outing*
- new pencil case!
- new shoes ( size 37, i really want that 19.90 gold with crossed string one by vivie, i missed my chance to get it as orchard's john little. so ballet! )
- new gold havaianas in gold thin strap
- parfum, moonsparkle by escada
- clothes and dressies!

AND i havent shopped for raya.
damn it!
wednesday!
- new shoes
- new bag!

GAH!
i cant wait for kachings$$ to roll in.

anyway, this are really the materialest of things
and i ought to save if i wanna go overseas with my buddies.

all i want for my 18th is to have A friendship back.
and happiness for everyone.
honestly, everyone is so GLUM lately,
must be the weather.

i cant wait to gmax with naddy and nasha!
its like 3 seated, specially for US! HAHA
and and songs of the sea.

charlene said when she's rich she's
gona fly me off to some resort for my bday!

that would be soooo cool babe!
sides, it'd be really wonderful to get out of boringgg sg soon!
sg is totally burning my brain cells.
right nad?
(:


I WANNA DO SOMETHING CRAZY
DIFFERENT AND NEVER DONE BEFORE!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWEEEEEEEEE(:

i still have hope though.
and i will never give up on a friendship
i see not worth dying.
it takes 3 to be a 3some.

first day of work just ended and it was hmm..
* will fill this in soon *

and i met h04 for chalet today!
lovely!

i still feel like i was treated like some disposable trash.
unfortunately there are some things I can change and some things I cant
I've been telling the truth in terms of what i experience all this while
and they are just seen as excuses
what about those gossips ? are they even worth listening to?
they belong in a category lower than excuses.
A friend said " if they are your true friends, rumours wont matter cause they know you best. Rumours are just created to spike up tension between two people and create a wall that only true friends can break through the ones who arent will rebound."
So perhaps this is the other people who may have a problem?

i guess i can write freely now that i have been replaced.
i lost a good friend of mine due to a misunderstanding which
i kept hoping didint happen but thats life and it makes me sick
to be living in a world like it.

it must be the clash of two outspoken people
and a introvert caught in the middle.
crying about it is useless because as said by * " it shows i want pity from others"
but I guess when i do cry, it's coz i am hurt that just by one word from another party and rumours
it can ruin a friendship.

mrs ang did say, its times like this you will find who your true friends are.
and its true that I put in alot of effort in my friendships, more than they deserve
so maybe its time to eliminate those whom actually are deserving of this.
Because, its due to this people whom hurt me that makes me think back,
is it all worth it.

i was in denial.
the reality has clearly been plastered right infront of me.
it's been something i keep running away from so now
its TIME.
time to change and notice.

as some of my closest friends have heard,
ething seems to be a downfall to me this year.
from friend to school to cca to rltnship.
now that each category has a certain direction fixed but still altered by the unexpected,
i have started to define the direction which i am to follow.

i dont want to be a replaceable friend.
i want to be a friend.
(:


* this is where i say, i feel so dumb, useless but i shall say i know things can change, because i believe i can change and so what if people still treat me the same way , as long as I know it myself than its all that matters *

I still have the family to be by my side.
and the few friends.
and this is better than having the MANY friends but none
whom know you well.

today was THE SCARLET hotel ( http://www.thescarlethotel.com/) site visit.
unfortunately there was NO
PICTURE TAKING ALLOWED
DRINKING PLAIN WATER allowed due to spillages
and
TALKING LOUDLY .

and TM with the coolio bro!
yoyo!

back wid updates and pics soon.
so maybe i did bend the rules abit.(:
hee

last minute day but absolutly FUNtastic.
had yoga with syafiqah
and http://www.maxloong.com/.
hot.