i think i have partially lost myself somehow somewhere
i know i havent always been a strong person
but i once felt i was.
i know i'm not sensitive with whatever jokes people may have to say
and whatever lashings people give me like shouting in my face.
or maybe because its been a really really long time since i've recieved such treatment
and getting it now is like a slap across my face.
i keep telling myself, " there are going to be more people worse than this and if i am going to cry and melodrama over it, i will not survive"
but i still react like a dumb ass.
crying for ssm ( i cant believe i CRY during SSM ) looks even wierder to type
and that when mad's members were joking,
i freaking took it too heart.
):
i am so depressed.
to top it all off, the corrupted pictures i cant help feeling bad with):
ebody must be disappointed too!
ARGH
* i need to go somewhere and scream,cry and let out all my disappointment and rage, somewhere no one can hear me from*
WHY MUST THIS COME NOW?
i HAVE SOOO many deadlines already.
why why why.
ohgreat.
my classmate just called to say , be prepared to be AHW.
coz u are one of those who has never and will never been
and u do not have prof test 2.
):
and seeing how things are.
i might just be.
my head is talking and its saying:
BUT YOU KNOW SOMETHING REEN.THIS ARE THINGS YOU CAN CONTROL.SO CONTROL IT REEN.THE WAY YOU SEE IT,will be the way it will turn out to be.so YOU JOLLYWELL TURN IT AROUND!
what it wrong with me.
sigh.
yours anonymously,
anon.
